Sometimes I get stuck. I get stuck in my pain. Stuck in my depression. Even stuck in my joy. I just get stuck. My illness can stop me in my tracks. It sneaks up on me at the worst possible moment and blindsides me. Granted, there are times when I can feel a mania or a depression coming on, but not often. My moods usually start with a great deal of unexplained anxiety which I quickly blame on this situation or that commitment. But, no, it’s usually a mood episode. My illness makes it difficult, at times, to keep moving forward with my life. It debilitates me.
But God wants me to move forward. He wants you to move forward. But how? What do we do when all we can see is our illnesses stepping over our boundaries and we are stuck? I always turn to God. I search Scripture, pray and meditate, but what if I am seeking the wrong thing?
I go to God with my moods and my darkness or with my over abundant happiness that indicates a mania and I always expect Him to make it better. I wait for Him to move in my life and give me relief, so that I can move forward. And He does.
But what if the catalyst that moves us forward has less to do with what he does and more to do with who he is? What if we sought God for the sheer pleasure of who he is and not what he can do? I think we would find a God we never knew. Yes, He is our loving Father, our truest friend and our rock, but can He be so much more. Yes, He can. In Him we have a treasure we have not fully discovered. I don’t think anyone will truly know Him this side of Heaven, but we can search.
Deuteronomy 4:29 says “But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul”.
We need to take the time to seek God for who he is. He will still give us the ability to persevere when our world becomes chaos but seeking him for who he is will give us a depth of relationship that we may not have. Our main goal is to know him and to love him with a reciprocal love. We yearn for that even if we don’t realize it.
Don’t allow yourself to get stuck. And if you are stuck, don’t stay there. By seeking him, you will find the catalyst to move into the life God has chosen for you. Keep moving forward!