Hey Everyone!! I am sorry that I have been away for so long. I have been going through some medical issues, as well as some website issues. I have fixed the website problems (thanks to my wonderful husband) and my medical issues are being resolved. I have missed talking with you.
In the last few months, as my medical issues have been at the forefront of my mind, I stopped monitoring my Bipolar. Bad move! I have been manic for a few months and didn’t even realize it. (the massive spending should have been a tip off). My husband actually brought it to my attention, and I have discussed it with my Doctor which necessitated a medication tweak. I am still manic but getting better. My point in telling you this…never assume that your illness will take a back seat to other priorities in your life! Your illness ALWAYS needs to be closely monitored.
I know we would all like to think that we do not have to be diligent in monitoring our illnesses all the time. But, as I have learned, it is when we stop paying close attention to our moods, our day to day living, our depression, is when things can go south very quickly. It’s tiring, I know. How many times do we want to give up and just let the illness run our lives? It’s easier. But, when we let our guard down, terrible things can happen. I just read of a Pastor in California who suffered from depression who took his own life. He couldn’t get in front of his depression. He got tired and he gave in. This has affected me profoundly. I hate to hear of someone suffering from a mental illness give in.
Having a mental illness is not easy. Having any illness is not easy. But we need to fight for every ounce of normalcy we can get. We need to take our moods, our hurts, our confusion, our fears, our pain to God. We need to press into Him with all we have in order to overcome what is going on at that moment. It’s hard and sometimes things don’t change right away. But we can never give up. We owe it to ourselves and to our loved ones to do all we can to get better. If we do not turn everything over to God, we are neglecting the one person who has the power to change us. To heal us. We need to rest in the promises of God, not only for healing, but for the strength to live day to day.
It will always be a struggle; it may never get easier. But we are here for a purpose. God has chosen to allow whatever is going on in our lives and we need to make a determined decision to live out whatever our purpose is. We cannot give up. Stay strong. Stay connected to God. Stay in the fight.