If you are like me, when you get hurt by someone you start to build a wall. You think to yourself “that person will never hurt me again” and the wall goes up. My question to you today is “is there a wall between your heart and God?”
Have you or do you feel like God has somehow wronged you? Do you feel that suffering with your illness is unfair? I used to feel that way. I would spend hours in prayer asking God “why me?” I was so absorbed in feeling like a victim I started to build a wall between my heart and God. I felt betrayed by God because I felt betrayed by my own mind and had no sense of normalcy in my life. Many ask how a good God can allow suffering? We need to remember we live in a fallen world and suffering is part of the consequences of that fall.
But we need not get angry with God for the things that we go through that are difficult and trying. We must remember that God is our hope and our wholeness. Without Him we are alone with no hope. The wall we begin to build to keep ourselves from hurting is the very thing keeping us from getting well. If we separate ourselves from God and others, we only hurt ourselves and we leave ourselves open to attack from the enemy. God is our shield and buckler and without His protection, we are vulnerable. Especially those of us who suffer from a mental illness. Our minds are our greatest weakness and Satan knows this. If we come out from under the covering of God, we are unprotected behind enemy lines.
The walls we build for our protection are our greatest hinderances to living under the protective hand of God. Creating barriers always leads to isolation. Isolation can lead to depression which feeds into anxiety. This leaves us open and out there for Satan to run amok in our lives. We must tear down the walls we have built in order to get well and to regain our trust in our God who loves us and only has our best in mind. Our illnesses are not punishments. We do not suffer with them for no reason. We are to use our sufferings to make others strong and to bring awareness to the difficulties that mental illness brings to a life. We are also tasked with helping to break down the stigma attached to mental illness. We cannot do any of this is we blame God and build walls.
Let’s tear down those walls and make a difference in the lives of others who suffer!