Have you ever had a big dream? One big enough that when you thought about it, it made you nauseous? I have. Faithful in the Midst Ministries is that big dream. God first planted this dream in my heart back in 2009 at a Winter Jam concert I attended with the youth in our church. I didn’t know how God was going to bring this dream to reality so I just tucked it away. Every time I would think of starting this ministry, I would immediately talk myself out of it. It was too difficult to do. I mean, after all, I have a mental illness that precludes me from doing anything other than trying to manage my day. How could God expect me to put myself out there for all to see and know. It was just too much.
But, through the years God has been faithful. He has led me to this place in steps. The first step was to get certified as a Christian Life Coach which I did. I thought this would be it and God would not want me to use this knowledge for anything other than personal growth. Wrong. The next step He took me through was to get my Bachelor degree’s in 2011. I obeyed and graduated with two degrees, one in counseling and one in coaching and, again, I thought I only earned those degrees for personal knowledge. Wrong again. Next step, I was not to pass up opportunities to talk about my illness. This one was the most difficult. There is quite a stigma attached to mental illness, as you well know. So when I told people about it, I just knew they were judging me, or so I thought. But, again I obeyed. Fast forward a few years and I tried to start a Coaching business but I failed because my illness starting taking center stage in my life again so I gave up. Battling my illness was a full-time job so I must have heard God wrong about this dream to start a ministry. Maybe it was someone else’ job. So I sat on this dream for the next few years, until now. I kept hearing God say,”why did you give up? I am Yahweh Nissi, the God your banner. I am powerful enough to defeat any foe, even your beliefs about yourself, even your illness. I had to listen because I knew God was right. He is always right. I was failing because I was believing the lie of the enemy that I was not qualified, or well enough to start this ministry. But then I thought, who better qualified to speak about mental illness and how God can heal and restore you then someone who is living it everyday. Yes I have the education, but the life experiences are where I speak from.
If you have a dream that God has put in your heart, go for it! Do not let the lies of the enemy stop you. The only reason he is putting those lies in your head is because he knows you are going to do something amazing for the kingdom of God. Put the devil on notice. You will not be stopped. God can overcome your doubts, your depression, your anxiety or any other barrier you have put up. Simply believe that He has a plan for you, a plan to prosper you and not harm you, a plan for your future ( Jeremiah 29:11). I don’t know your dreams or your plans but God does because He gave them to you. Do not let someone or some wrong belief paralyze you. Your dreams are worth going after. Who knows what God has in store for you. Every day, put your feet on the ground, make the devil tremble at the sound of you pursuing your God-given calling and God will do great things through you. I promise. Believe.